Fortunate

A very nice girl once said to me that when the moment is gone you wouldn't want to post it anymore, I think she's right. I was going to sleep, then I remembered the first message I got this morning.

Angels live among us, some of usgot plenty, some of us got less, it's depend on how nice the person is. And luckily I have one who is always monitoring me, who knows that I'm alone even though I denied it.

Sunday, 26-12-2010, 7.59 am. She said I shouldn't go to a certain place because she heard that there're going to be a riot around that location. Then she said that I shouldn't sleep too late every night because it's unhealthy. She said that I should take care of myself especially my health. She said if I can work like 9-5 everyday, and rest like normal people.

I know she sent me that message because she can't take care of me like she used to, as now the priorities are different. But I'm still the same old person to her. I think she's right to do so. I told myself that I won't make her worry about me anymore, even if I need to fake it in front of her. She is the real lady, I love her like so much, and that's why I will do anything for her.

I hope these inaudible words will be said out loud to you one day. Sis.

Technology

Modern life is trying to make you a naked exhibitionist.

Don't be one.

modern life is rubbish

Right now everyone is saying happy mothers day through twitter or facebook. They put up really beautiful words for their moms, about how they love em, thanks for taking care of me, greatest mom in the world, bla bla bla. Do their parents even have twitter or facebook accounts? Isn't it more effective to give them a call or private msg?

I'm sorry it really isn't my business.

9 hours

Since the early morning I knew today will be a very long, stressful day. And yes, it was a very bad day till he opened up my eyes and realised that it's just my mind messing things up.

"I've never seen you so stressed like this before..." she said.

I wasn't satisfied with the stuff I produced, and lost all the self confidence, I thought I'm just going to give up being a so called creative designer. I said why would he done this to me, why he didn't give me the ideas. I opened up all the books and references. But day was just getting worse as nobody around me that afternoon, no support, no good words, just self blaming, bad ones. Nobody asked, I didn't share it, so it's simple, nobody will care.

And also, an expectation that I was waiting for didn't turn up, I was running out of battery but the charger wasn't so responsive. The red light I was hoping never turned up.

Then it was just an hour before the meeting so I packed all the work I did, and went off. I kept whining about how he didn't help me, yet I said to him to help me out this time, help me. Imagining all the bad feedbacks and responses that I will get while driving to the meeting place. I was like a walking corpse.

Ok, now, the good facts. The clients love most of my ideas, they said that they're right to chose me to do this project. I felt like relieved in split seconds after having a very sick day. I still think it was not good yet, and I hate it, but at least I will enjoy the rest of the night, 9 hours?

I said thank you. Thank you for being there when there's no single soul helping me out. Thank you for keeping quite while I was whining like a loser, just so I would find the answer by myself. Am not bad at all.

A very difficult day.

Now go to sleep

(Perhaps) the worst headache a man could ever get is a mixture of his professional idealism and his personal egotism. And those who doesn't have both of them at once might not encounter this, but too bad they will only just be a happy-go-lucky, normal people. Like a dead fish, you will only follow the stream.

Feel better now?

Come onnnn

Never understand what's in his mind, that some are chosen to do the heavy duties while the happy-go-lucky people always get the darn time offs. Really hope that he would show a glimpse about the future thus I can decide if I need to follow every of the so-called responsibility, or not at all. Because I have all the rights to modify the life I'm living.

For this very moment, what exactly is he doing? seriously.

Get lost

So I think I should make a description about myself now.

He's kind, very polite, he respects his old men, he doesn't smoke, he doesn't drink, hardworking, quite, ermm tall? What else? he loves his God, he doesn't go to clubs, he likes to travel.

Hey I have a better description than the girl!

See, I think I can sell myself now.

Another

I just received the weirdest message from an auntie. It sounds:

"Fandy, I think I've finally found someone who could be your 'partner'. She probably meets every of your preference. She's quite tall, white/light skin tone, smart, long hair, still young, hehehe. Want me to introduce her to you?"

What a description! She must be a Goddess. Cool, no thanks hahahahahaha.

Eat me now.

Post hoc

This article I just read, reminds me of how this idealism plays a vital role in life. Giving myself a set of continuous questions could perhaps lead me to the root of the problem.

So, how can we be different if we don't know what are common these days? How can we know what are common if we don't open our eyes? How can we know why they're common if we don't observe? And what's there to observe if we're still in the box? The real question is, why are you still in the darn box?

The fact of where we are standing right now, the last couple of years, does matter. The thing is about looking for new stuff thus we can keep being different.

Don't bother if you don't mind being a commoner.

advice from distance

June: U are always seeking for problems...
Me: I know...
June: I'll let you know the reason after lunch.
Me: Ok

Nah, I'm not.

Oh I know, I'm old fashioned.

No distance left to run

So, these last few days were quite dispirited, I can be sure its all because of my complicated mind, with all the assumptions, presumptions, whatsoever. I had a line of exciting things last weekend, which should be able to distract my mind away. I had a concert, football manager 2011, my niece's birthday party. Juventus. But again, till this very second I still feel numb. I'm really sure that I shouldn't be the one to start the noise, though I know I want to.

Well clearly you're my battery, and I'm running out of power.

Let's see if its time to break the rules as I've been sick learning about its.

Get a life

You always wanted everything to be flawless. What are you, God?

One from a cuz

Keep yourself remembered, that not everyone is like you.

Please don't get me wrong

Ok listen, I'm not gonna find you when I'm stressed out because you're not a rubbish bin. But I don't mind being yours.

Today

It's been 4 years since you left us. You will always be missed and remembered as our private hero.

One fine day

Life is one f****** beauty contest after another. School, then college, then work... F*** that. And f*** the Air Force Academy. If I want to fly, I'll find a way to fly. You do what you love, and f*** the rest.

-Dwayne (Little Miss Sunshine)

Good Luck

When you're down and stressed out, you need to have someone who would listen to your stories, patiently. If you don't have one, then you're doomed. I'm dead serious.

I'd rather be a crazy man right now

And I don't think God's answering me right now. He will, it's just not the right time yet. But I just can't take it anymore.

Simple

No matter hard you try, clapping with a single hand wouldn't make any noise. Simple.

yeah

Put Him first on the list, then everything will be fine.

art through the eyes of a designer

While an art is more like a mute piece of work. It (well most of them) seems like it doesn't say anything (while infact it does). Some people don't get it, but some others, some ordinary people, feel like they understand it, through unspeakable ways, it goes heart to heart sort of way. Then they're in love with it. Art delivers a strong feeling without saying any words, if you know what I mean.

Niche market, that's why a lot of them suffer.

little spark sometimes is better

To me a good design is not something that when people see it they go "whoah!!!" straight away, then forget about it in no time. It is not only about the look, because there are too many good stuff around. It's getting boring. No brain, just simply to satisfy your eyes, and that's it.

A good design should be simple, and when people see it, they will think then they will go "ahhh..." (sometimes it needs to be digested) It should be able to send the message, a sticky message that will be in their mind (or even heart) for quite a long time, or even forever.

It is true that a design has to be pretty/handsome, but it needs to be able to deliver the message at the first place, that's the main duty. Because no matter how beautiful a thing is, without the brain it is as worthless as rubbish. Beautiful rubbish.

cuz in love

The flying creatures are full of their blood, but the night is still young for this couple. They don't care how much blood had been sucked. The fattened up bastards just can't stop them to finish their conversation tonight, nor their hotted up ears. Decision will only be made by them. They own the night!

Now I think I will be the last one to have that kind of relationship. I call it a bad luck, or postponed good luck, whatever. Happy for you though, haha!

no, stay right where you are

Off my mind will ya?

3 kinds of yes

It is so very difficult to be a good guy. And even harder when people never understand it, they just don't think that nice people are exist, you know, those with polluted mind.

Nah

We often create our own scenario and try to play our role in it. The most reasonable, and as real as possible. Sometimes it fails, sometimes it's a big success. Whatever the result is, have a big heart.

Listen boys

There are many ways for a girl to get inside our mind, and mess it up. While sadly we only have one way out to clear things up. By saying it out to her. There's no other way. Then she will help us to forget her, or the other way around instead. Either way would be better!

easy boy

Life is hard enough, don't make it even worse