Top 10 songs in 2011

Making mix-tape has always been my hobby since i was a kiddo. Here ya go!!

1. Helplessness Blues - Fleet Foxes
2. Cruel - St. Vincent
3. Goshen - Beirut
4. Think You Can Wait - The National
5. Putting The Dog To Sleep - The Antlers
6. Suck It And See - Arctic Monkeys
7. Who Do I Think I Am - Woods
8. Honey Bunny - Girls
9. All Die Young - Smith Westerns
10. Same Mistake - Clap Your Hands Say Yeah

Back!

I am consistently inconsistent in probably everything.

Mathematics

Life has never been worse than these very days, well not worse, but more boring. The negativities I have are showing their capabilities in ruining the life. You know things like having no guts to share my weaknesses, even though I know it will release some burdens that's I've been carrying around on my back. I never asked others to mountain my back with responsibilities, yet I'm not sure if I'm the one who made the decision to carry these loads.

I need to craft every smile on my face, which I know that it is not very healthy. And finding the materials is the hardest part. Now I'm having a bit of insomnia, and sleeping time often threatens me. I'd rather to fall asleep before I even know it. Future scares me to dead. And what, the dvds are all watched, can you believe that, it's freaking hundreds of films. Well I'm downloading a new one now.

World is a wonderful place as others say so, I agree, but it's also a fucking difficult place to live too. I mean, what's the point having it pretty then? Balance innit?

I reckon God's is sacrificing a person life for others, again, balance. I'm begging Him not to sacrifice my life, I love to live. Seriously.

Not good enough

Thoughts/creativities only show its best when everything else is in its right place. They will come to us when we have nothing to worry about. Not because of the pressure from the projects, nor our financial condition, or any other things. It will serve us when we're sitting comfortably with a blank paper and a piece of pencil on our desk. Bright thoughts are pure, and should only be accompanied with things that perfectly aligned with them, and a single problem will spoil everything.

With all due respect to my fellas, whom always believe in me sincerely, but I've been left by them long time ago. Hence none of things I've produced is good enough ever since. Well now I am currently begging them to come back to me.

I had seven faces
Thought I knew which one to wear
But I'm sick of spending these lonely nights
Training myself not to care
The subway is a porno
The pavements they are a mess
I know you've supported me for a long time
Somehow I'm not impressed

NYC - Interpol

Freakin', happy go lucky

Everyday we need to be reminded that sorrows will never do any good. Get your ass up and make the most of your life.

Work hard, play harder

believe me

This would be my ultimate advice, when you're close to a person, always have the worst assumption. As if he has a problem that only God can deal with it. If you can accept it then you're not wasting your time.

After all I remain as a super introvert guy

Again I will suggest that we shouldn't call someone an asshole, or coward, because we will never know what's inside their mind and heart. But yes you can do that if you understand him/her like f inside out. Except for some narcissists who are exploiting themselves through what we call social f networks. Well let's exclude them in this post. See, not a lot of people are able to show their actual selves, not even if they talk a lot. People who are scared of rejections, and alienations.

My big brother last day said that I should find a girlfriend so I can share my life. He will never get my answer because he's not a person whom I would share my private stories with. Not because I've got a problem with him, but I have this that makes me think millions freaking times before I move to the next step of this f life. For this one, I will keep it to myself and perhaps a few people in the future. 2/3 persons?

How to live a good life

I have some reasons to blame you about this life, but i have plenty more reasons to give thanks to you.

Much more

Life is spamming me with all the doubts about You, and the world's tempting me with all the wonders it has. But I will never leave You.