Mathematics

Life has never been worse than these very days, well not worse, but more boring. The negativities I have are showing their capabilities in ruining the life. You know things like having no guts to share my weaknesses, even though I know it will release some burdens that's I've been carrying around on my back. I never asked others to mountain my back with responsibilities, yet I'm not sure if I'm the one who made the decision to carry these loads.

I need to craft every smile on my face, which I know that it is not very healthy. And finding the materials is the hardest part. Now I'm having a bit of insomnia, and sleeping time often threatens me. I'd rather to fall asleep before I even know it. Future scares me to dead. And what, the dvds are all watched, can you believe that, it's freaking hundreds of films. Well I'm downloading a new one now.

World is a wonderful place as others say so, I agree, but it's also a fucking difficult place to live too. I mean, what's the point having it pretty then? Balance innit?

I reckon God's is sacrificing a person life for others, again, balance. I'm begging Him not to sacrifice my life, I love to live. Seriously.